March 28th, 2008

oh the angst


So, I've been quiet for the most part lately, because I've been busy with school stuff, and also because I've been emo over getting rejected from the last X internships I've applied for where X is a number I don't actually want to count to right now.

And while I intellectually understand that this may not entirely be a reflection on me, I also know that yes, it is a reflection on me, because that's what an interview is about. It's supposed to be them judging me as a potential employee. And I keep failing. Miserably.

Maybe if I had increased Y where Y is the number of internships I applied to as a whole, maybe I wouldn't be so fucked right now. But I applied to not an insignificant number of them.

So yeah, I have some opportunities left, but they're looking highly unlikely or highly undesirable. I think the best course of action is to beg a professor for research over the summer, though that's going to be spotty at best as well this late in the game.

'Scuse me while I go try to bolster my ego by rereading my old feedback and responding to the new.