And yes, they are great. Blah blah blah, you all were right. I'm not sorry I didn't start watching them sooner, but I'm glad that I got around to seeing them at all. They're incredibly emotionally taxing shows, even when they're good and you want to keep watching.
I don't think I can say anything here that other people haven't said better (plus I'm still only on the first season of both of them, so.)
I don't know. Maybe I'm just old and bitter and burned out or something, but I've been getting increasingly bored with fandom's stock stories, and I've been feeling an increasing distance from fandom as a whole. I don't know. I want more stories where love can't solve everything, where the characters have complex, imperfect, difficult, painful relationships. I want stories that change the way I see and understand canon. I want stories that feel like they're engaging in canon. I want stories without happy endings. I want stories that challenge me intellectually and emotionally.
There are definitely still stories out there that are like this, but maybe I've been around too long and it takes too much more for things to actually take me by surprise. It feels like I'm having a harder time of finding them.
And you know, I know that I'm kind of part of the problem. I have written and continue to write AUs with sunshiny happy endings and I've patched up broken relationships. And it's not like fandom was any better in earlier days, necessarily. It's always been full of melodrama and facile characterizations and love-conquers-all narratives. I think I just had hopes for fannish activity as a means of picking apart and examining our canons, of doing worldbuilding or explorations of the deeper themes. I get that it's not really something that fandom wants to do, but I feel like AUs have become the main mode of fannish conversation instead of the secondary one, and I don't know if that's something I'm interested in.
Blah. Okay, I'm done. Back to your regularly scheduled squee.
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